denial or acceptance?

firstly, i love you so much, and it really really hurts that we are fading out of each other's lives so fast. i don't know if distancing myself from you is my best decision, and whenever i think about it... :(

but it's the hard truth that i'm able to get you off my mind so much easier now. and when i do, i feel better. but i wonder if i'm just escaping the pain for now because whenever i do think about you, the pain is still as real.

i miss you so much. if only.